sabar lah hati..

Ya Allah...ni betul-betul mencabar kesabaran aku..how could you?i trusted you so much. WE trusted you so much! Nak pakai dulu? Aku tak pernah dengar istilah NAK PAKAI DULU when it comes to pembahagian harta! Tak takut ke? Tak takut dosa? Ke dh tak rasa takut langsung pada Allah! Ingat ni apa?Kedai Emas Kampung Melayu? Pakai Dulu Bayar Kemudian?!


Ya Rabbi....aku sedih sangat-sangat. Disappointed sangat-sangat..dengan wang dan kekayaan, syaitan senang-senang je kan kaburkan pandangan kita?jadikan kita hamba duit?


Aku tak mampu nak kata apa-apa lagi. Aku semacam dapat meraskan adalah lebih baik aku duduk disini berjauhan tanpa mengetahui apa-apa daripada aku tahu apa yang sebenarnya berlaku. Sakit hati? dah tentu. lebih menyakitkan bila tindakan itu diperlakukan oleh darah daging kita sendiri. pedih? dah bernanah dah. Puas aku pujuk hati ni supaya jangan rasa begitu.ini pun ujian untuk dia..ujian untuk aku jugak~tapi macam mana nak ditegur kalau empunya badan tak pernah nak dengar kata aku atau yang lain-lain. kalau dia kata hitam, hitam lah dia. 


Sepertinya aku ada satu lagi alasan untuk tidak pulang ke Singapura. Aku tidak sampai hati nak balik. bukan sebab kau yang bakal kahwin nanti. tapi sebab aku tidak sanggup kau di perbodoh-bodohkan atau diperalat-alatkan oleh wanita itu. 


Cakap tak serupa bikin. Tika saat ini aku sangat Benci dengan kau. Teramat sangat. Kau yang dulu aku banggakan, yang dulu aku merasakan hamba Allah yang amat sangat boleh dipercayai...bukan sekali aku Terkena, banyak kali..hingga tak terbilang jumlahnya. Setiap kali perkara yang sama berulang, aku seakan-akan tidak percaya yang Itu, bayangan raut wajahmu, Itu, adalah engkau yang selalu aku banggakan yang selalu aku julang. Dan yang terpenting, Darah Daging Aku Sendiri! Betul kata orang, yang harus dibanggakan dan julang itu hanyalah Allah yg Maha Esa! Tiada selain Dia!


i hate my father. i hate him. i hate him. i hate him. And it's because of HER, HE is NO LONGER My Father. i just wish Mum and Adeq is here! period.


Thanks lah..but No thanks. 

.::LadyEsabelle::.

9 sebab kenapa kita diuji.

Thanks to Aisyah for sharing....

Kadang-kadang bila kita dalam kesusahan tu, kita hampir terpinga-pinga tak tau

nak buat mcm mana. Kalau kita tak tahan nafsu kita dari marah, binget, geram atau sebagainye confirm Syaitan ambil kesempatan kan? Selalu buat kita tanye perkara-perkara ni sampai kadang-kala kita tak jumpa jawapannya..kenapa? jawapannya memang dh sedia ada...cuma kita tak teliti betul-betul isi kandungannya. 

So, credits to Aisyah for sharing this piece of knowledge. I would love to share it with Muslims out there..Mudah-mudahan article ini dapat dimanfaatkan untuk diri kita sendiri agar sentiasa bermuhasabah diri sebelum 'Ter' Su'dzhon dengan Allah =)

Hati-hati bila terkena musibah ^.^

1. KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN? 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.' 

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216 

2. KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI? 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. ' 

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286 

3. KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA RASA FRUST? 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman.' 

- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139 

4. KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA? 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan) , dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan). ' 

5. KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA? 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk' 

- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

 

6. KITA BERTANYA : APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI? 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... ? 

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 111 

7. KITA BERTANYA : KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP? 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal. ' 

- Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

 

8. KITA BERKATA : AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!! 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir.' 

- Surah Yusuf ayat 12 

9. KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU DIUJI? 

QURAN MENJAWAB:

 

'Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; 'Kami telah beriman,' ('I am full of faith to Allah') sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan, sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta.' 

-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3 

Dah jangan mengeluh lagi.. Pergi baca Quran.. InsyaAllah akan bertemu

 jawapannya.. =)

.::LadyEsabelle::.

*random mode*

Today is Friday. Fridays has officially becoming our "stay in bed doing nothing" day. That is what we've been doing all this while. But today is different. I have a class that i didn't attend, i will be having a meeting later on -which is i am so damn lazy to go cos it doesn't concern me anyway-

my mood today turns random. I was excited when i told my sister that i'll be taking driving lessons this month. But the excitements turns me down when i was only told goodluck! and she'll teach me driving once i'm back. the thought of going online and talk with my family slowly....gone i guess? just where is my family?like seriously. it's not that i want to tell the world that i have some bad communications with my family.it is actually.for now la.

everyone seems busy with their family and partners. do they even know that i am struggling and fighting with my feelings here? my plans. my exams. my papers. no calls. no webcamming. not even chatting. just who am i to you guys. really.

my roomate calls her brother over the net. she gets to talk to her dad and siblings. once in awhile even when her family or she herself is busy, at least they did spend some time to talk for hours!!! housemate next door calls her family every morning. n her roomie just talked over the net too past few days ago. what is it with my family that is too difficult for them to spend their time even at least 15mins just to talk and ask if i'm ok over here?????wtf was that?

i hate my famliy. i really do. for now la. HE called me once. after Months my sister reached home. just to tell me that he's getting married. HE don't even ask me how am i doing down here. HE just proceed with his plans to tell me that HE is getting married. don't you realise that you have not even spoke to me or sms me more than a month!! don't you know that?? "owh...sorryla....i was quite busy these days la.." stop talking f***ing nonsense la! i'm not a 7 yrs old kid la. please la. the fact that you've been telling me that AGAIN and AGAIN makes me SICK and TIRED of you guys!

busy. yar right. going to dates and concerts sure are making you guys busy these days huh. without even realising the existence of another soul. thanks eh. if you think that something is wrong with me then think again. something Is wrong with you guys. luckily i have some friends who makes me smile. and a BestFriend who is trying his best to spend his time even when he's busy. the fact that i am telling myself that i still need my family no matter what has already vanished. thanks to your un co-operative actions.

enough about that.

anyhoo..i dreamt of my lil brother. i was cooking a meal when he came and tasted my cooking. he said it was awesome! i missed him badly. he used to be my "tester" and he always give his honest compliments!hehe..i love him..i love his smile. and i really like it when he mentioned he wants to "finish" up the batter from my mixing bowl. =P he'll bring the whole big bowl and eat all up while playing his PS2*sigh...* i really missed those times...

if none of these people are in contact with me, he'll be the one cause he's always online...now he will never be since 2008..almost 2 years now..without him..life IS bored. my lil brother...hopefully Allah place him with those who have done good deeds, Ameen.

i think i've made up my mind. i'll stay here till raya. i'll come back after raya i guess.or worse, come back when i've done my cert. ameen. nak pass k? nak cert cepat2. then nk kawen. blh cabot! Ameen.

signing out;

.::LadyEsabelle::.

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